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you know the feeling that you have when you try so hard and practice so much but you know you don’t stand a chance anyway? that’s how I feel .
you work so hard and try your best and yet its not good enough. then someone actually tells you you’re not good enough, so you decide to try even harder. and yet. you still don’t stand a chance. so what do you do now? break down and cry? or complain? or give up? I honestly have no idea. I hate it when you’re really giving it your all and yet people don’t notice. and why do they not notice? because they already know someone else that can be in your place. and that without you they can survive. heck. not only survive but succeed. see the position this is at now? unimportant. its amazing how irritating this can be. even when you are trying to plan something for the good of the group it cause conflict. no one bothers to listen to you when you ask them nicely, and even when you shout they don’t bother. so then you give up and start talking to those people that care. and then what happens? they scold you for not telling them anything or for discussing a situation at a wrong time. and why? i don’t know. when you’ve got a great idea that would work really well, and you have worked so hard on it. what do they do? cancel and shred it to pieces. not even wanting to try or give it a chance. but just cancelling the whole idea. all that you’ve worked for and throw it away. you spent so much time working on it and don’t even have the thoughts in your head about the exams coming up. but you just work on it with all your heart and soul and what do you get? a load of crap. I am done with this.
And you know what it feels when your group barely does anything and expects so much from you that you should not be obliged to give? the feeling when you are discussing group projects and they just sit and stare. then start talking nonsense. you know what? it sucks. and rolling your eyes ain’t a solution. neither is showing attitude and giving dumb looks. it doesn’t work that way. at least some people actually try and help, shoot ideas. and you know what I don’t care anymore. do what you like. but don’t bother scolding me over throwing away the barely 2 sentences script. cause that script is not even worth continuing and its not like you even helped writing it. do you know what you were doing? nothing. absolutely nothing. don’t expect ideas to pop out the air or drop down from heaven. and don’t expect me to do anything about it.
you’ll understand that I’m totally pissed off.
argh. life is so.. irritating.
problems just keep coming up one after another.
so anyway. SOP is OVER!
I would say it was quite a success. And since it was our lovely sec 4 choir members last performance, I’m sure everyone did their best. I think our choir can be very united sometimes and yet very split up sometimes too. I am really gonna miss all the sec 4s. they are all so nice, talented, cool, friendly, their the most amazing seniors I’ve ever had. although I really don’t want them to leave, its cool cause I trust the sec3s will do an awesome job taking care of our choir too. I would love to name them out one by one now, and write all their special qualities here but.. then sec 4 farewell won’t be as fun. haha. also we will be changing our choir conductor which I honestly think is not a very good idea. If you think about it, our conductor now is awesome, he has trained us well and thus we have got a gold of SYF. so why change now? right after we attained a gold award? L well. im not sure what the reason is so im not in the position to judge this matter, BUT, I think we should not change conductor because.
1. our current conductor knows our strengths and weaknesses.
2. we are used to him and he is (I think) used to us.
3. although we are suppose to be a flexible choir, adapting to the new conductor might take a while.
4. he knows most of us and our individual problems.
5. changing conductor right after the sec 4s leave is not a very good idea cause they are the more experienced ones (besides the sec3s) and are very talented so our standard might drop. MIGHT.
I guess that’s about it. also many changes are all coming along, lao shi is leaving choir, ernie is leaving choir, sec4s leaving choir, conductor leaving choir and in replacement, a new sec 1 batch next year, a new teacher (I think) new choir committee and new choir conductor.
all the changes are all happening at one go.
school common tests are coming up as well, ours start on Tuesday and ends on Friday. so I will not be able to go to church tmr. and next week. unless next week I beg and try to go. I’ll try my best!
time check its now 12:20. I always blog until so late. argh. oh and guess what. im having a very bad cough! *GASP* SWINE FLU. ahha. JKJK. but yeah after my interesting voice healed, im still left with a terrible sorethroat, im coughing continuously… which isn’t very good haha.
remind me to drink lots of water!
YAY for water wally! I actually watched all the episodes! ( I was doing geography project) haha. the water supply thing :D YAY FOR DROPLETS OF WATER THAT TALK!
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